Year’s 2023 October 15th. The year’s closing in. Three years of sleepless nights turned me nocturnal. Thoughts racing through my head, “Why?”,“Why?”,“Why?”, “It’s almost as if they don’t want me to succeed no matter how I tried”. A feeling that “Something doesn’t want me to do this”. “Do I even belong here?”, Endless questions filled the void in my head. Questions I just couldn’t answer. Felt as if I didn’t have the power to answer them. As if i could never make a decision for myself… It clicked… “that’s right”. I never truly made a decision in my life, ever. I was a riverstone all my life, settled wherever the stream took me. I never knew what I wanted to do, all options felt meaningless to me. Remembering that, I. Felt. Powerless. Time started to warp around me. The night passed. Mist turned golden, The air warmed up. 7:15AM. I stood up, looked outside my dorm and asked myself a question “Even if this plays out perfectly somehow, would I die peacefully knowing that I died trying to win at a game I didn’t want to play?”. Lost in thoughts, A distant ring disrupted me, It was dad. calling my phone. I picked up. “What’s up tiger?” his usual. Time slowed, again. Memories of the last three years blurred and merged into an instant. I never felt something of that magnitude hit me, ever. I answered. “I don’t want to do this…do this….do this….do thiss…..do thisss…..” my voice faded into echoes. I dropped out. Life got real, real fast. I realized life’s a game. It’s always been. So I said to myself “If I’m here to play this game, why not play it on the highest level then?”. That day I stepped into the game of high risks and higher rewards - Business. Fast forward 18 months. 2 failed businesses. months of work gone. I faced a question, again. “Do I do this knowing that my chances to make it are really slim, or go back to the life I hated living anyway”. I found myself battling out hate for hate, for both scenarios in my head, I really wanted to make it work so bad I was blinded. I couldn’t think of a reality where I would’ve failed. but life really humbles and brings you down to your knees. Fast. I hated the way it felt falling down and down again trying to figure it out, trying to make it work, I hated giving something your all only for it to amount to nothing. I hated suffering. I hated not being able to sleep with all these liquid complications. I hated every second of it and the trade-offs that came with it. But, I knew when I make it to the otherside my life would change. I needed to get out of this loop of lifedrain and failures. fast. I needed help, desperately. But, had no one to look up to. I tried, wasn't even fortunate enough to have a mentor. So I became my own. I studied months, crystallizing everything I did and learnt since day one. Teaching myself things I wished I knew before, expectations, information, technicalities and preparations. I saw things objectively and it helped me get through a lot. and so with my newly founded powers I decided to shift my approach from building businesses alone to helping others build theirs. Aryanofficial.com was made the following weeks after and became a medium for that.
Year’s 2023 October 15th. The year’s closing in. Three years of sleepless nights turned me nocturnal. Thoughts racing through my head, “Why?”,“Why?”,“Why?”, “It’s almost as if they don’t want me to succeed no matter how I tried”. A feeling that “Something doesn’t want me to do this”. “Do I even belong here?”, Endless questions filled the void in my head. Questions I just couldn’t answer. Felt as if I didn’t have the power to answer them. As if i could never make a decision for myself… It clicked… “that’s right”. I never truly made a decision in my life, ever. I was a riverstone all my life, settled wherever the stream took me. I never knew what I wanted to do, all options felt meaningless to me. Remembering that, I. Felt. Powerless. Time started to warp around me. The night passed. Mist turned golden, The air warmed up. 7:15AM. I stood up, looked outside my dorm and asked myself a question “Even if this plays out perfectly somehow, would I die peacefully knowing that I died trying to win at a game I didn’t want to play?”. Lost in thoughts, A distant ring disrupted me, It was dad. calling my phone. I picked up. “What’s up tiger?” his usual. Time slowed, again. Memories of the last three years blurred and merged into an instant. I never felt something of that magnitude hit me, ever. I answered. “I don’t want to do this…do this….do this….do thiss…..do thisss…..” my voice faded into echoes. I dropped out. Life got real, real fast. I realized life’s a game. It’s always been. So I said to myself “If I’m here to play this game, why not play it on the highest level then?”. That day I stepped into the game of high risks and higher rewards - Business. Fast forward 18 months. 2 failed businesses. months of work gone. I faced a question, again. “Do I do this knowing that my chances to make it are really slim, or go back to the life I hated living anyway”. I found myself battling out hate for hate, for both scenarios in my head, I really wanted to make it work so bad I was blinded. I couldn’t think of a reality where I would’ve failed. but life really humbles and brings you down to your knees. Fast. I hated the way it felt falling down and down again trying to figure it out, trying to make it work, I hated giving something your all only for it to amount to nothing. I hated suffering. I hated not being able to sleep with all these liquid complications. I hated every second of it and the trade-offs that came with it. But, I knew when I make it to the otherside my life would change. I needed to get out of this loop of lifedrain and failures. fast. I needed help, desperately. But, had no one to look up to. I tried, wasn't even fortunate enough to have a mentor. So I became my own. I studied months, crystallizing everything I did and learnt since day one. Teaching myself things I wished I knew before, expectations, information, technicalities and preparations. I saw things objectively and it helped me get through a lot. and so with my newly founded powers I decided to shift my approach from building businesses alone to helping others build theirs. Aryanofficial.com was made the following weeks after and became a medium for that.